Sucide

Have you ever Googled Sucide ?
Updated facebook status that "I just died" 

Have you ever walked lonely in the rain ? 
Took painkillers that wont kill the pain ?
Have you ever thought you'd gone insane ?
Coz no matter how hard you try he wud never comeback again
Have you wished atleast once god should've been on your side ?
Tell me have you ever Googled sucide ? 

Have you ever seen your love  lying on a hospital bed ?
And the Doctor came out and told you " We are sorry! He is dead"
Have you stood there frozen 
Outside the ICU ?
And remembered the last time you said " I love you" 
Have you seen his soulless body and cried like you have never cried ?
Tell me have you ever Googled Sucide ? 

Have you hugged his deadbody
And never let him go ?
And pleaded to the almighty 
" Please God! Please! Please No! "
Have ever gathered courage 
To shut his charming eyes ?
Looked at them for eternity 
And told him last goodbyes ?
Have you been forced to live
When you were dead inside ?
Tell me have you ever Googled Sucide ? 

Have you seen his cremation And wished somehow it would stop ?
The torch which was to engulf him 
Would somehow just drop ?
Have you ever tried to stop the fire
And been forced back by the crowd ?
Have your emotions choked you 
When you wanted to cry out loud ?
Have you seen him laid on the woods 
Tell me have you ever Googled Sucide ? 

Have you collected his ashes
The very next day ?
And set them free to the Ganges
When you didn't wanna give it away ?
Have you remembered only one person All the time you pray ?
And prayed that you'd die very soon and 
be with him someday ?
Have you felt that the question's so big That you cant simply avoid ?
Tell me have you ever Googled Sucide ? 

Then why do stand here and tell me
Why I should not die ?
I know you wont understand my friend 
But please please try!
One day I'll have to make a choice
One day I'll have to decide
That how many pills should I take 
To kill my death apetite
Taking pills is the easiest way I found when I Googled Sucide
Good bye all this is my last status update " Yes world I just died!"